Day 72: Rocks in My Head

Seriously. I shook my head this morning, and it rattled. It kind of hurt. I was so not out on the town last night, either. Staying true to my word this week, focusing and settling down a little. It feels kind of warm and fuzzy. Quite the change from my usual ADD OCD jack russell terrier self. I still get my moments randomly throughout the day, however. I mean, I have gravel in my hair. I parked my car, and for some reason (must have been a good reason at the time) I dropped to the ground. I can't remember anything after that. But hey, it happens.

Why go out on the town, anyway, when the best bar in town is on my front step. Beer is a dollar and I can watch the drug deals in the park, see the drunk people walking to their cars and trying to drive away, and talk to bunnies while they dig for roots that aren't there (Note to self - buy carrots, because it's never going to rain again in Edmonton). And my neighbors are the best entertainment of all. You learn ALOT about your neighbors at midnight. Outside. In the dark. And I can watch cable TV through their windows. My roommate and I don't need sound either, because it's more fun making up your own dialogue. An added bonus to that is when you actually do finally watch the TV program with audio later on, it's like watching an entire new episode. However, it is embarrassing sometimes when you tell the ending (like taking candy away from babies, it is my evil desire to tell you the ending every movie that I watched before you) and it's entirely inaccurate. Like in the Titanic, I thought he was just sleeping.

7PM and it's still broad daylight. I forget sometimes why I love Edmonton. Not-winter is one of the things I love. Now that I've decided to stay, all the good things about the city are coming back to me. Decisions are much easier, too, there are alot of opportunities here if I just focus. Not once this week did I check the job postings in Amsterdam. Or Nunavut. Or the Antarctic. Although one day I'm going to see a penguin outside of West Edmonton Mall. And hopefully not because some drunk guy let them all run free in the parking lot. But it is amazing what you can do when you know what you want. I know what I want now, and it almost feels like this roller coaster unemployment trip is about to end. And honestly, I've learned alot, but I deserve a bit of happiness and stability now. I'm at the point in my life, to everyone's great surprise, that I'm really really really ready for that. Going down the road I've always gone down is getting boring. Time for a new road, new scenery, which is this road I'm on, and this scenery. I'm excited. I'm not worried about money anymore (why bother? Life is too short). I know that I'll eventually have the funds and ability to do whatever I want to do later on because I'm kind of good at pulling $$$ out of my arse. I just need the right people and the RIGHT job at this point in my life to get me to that next step.

So, maybe soon I'll have to come up with another blog for you guys. Like how to drive your family and friends crazy in ten days. I'm good at that. Or how to rip the tap out of the counter when the drip turns into a running tap and the landlord has done absolutely F-all about it. That's a best seller right there. Or why gay cyclist cleat boys in the upstairs apartment won't take their cleats off while walking around their apartment. And I hope they're wearing more than their cleats when they're walking around up there, too...